I Don’t Care.

I LOVE IT.

It’s the end of April - I’ve made it eight months as a single mom and four months officially divorced.

Here are some things I have realized:

• Life gets stressful, but having a partner who truly cares about how you are doing and genuinely wants to help makes a HUGE difference. My partner reminds me to breathe, never wants to see me drown or even feel like I’m drowning, and he takes up the burden with me even though it isn’t his burden to bear.

• Being a single mom and happy is way better than being married and miserable.

• Everything I was afraid of I have gone through, overcome, and come out from even better than I was before.

• The girls have been amazing as fuck. I know they say that children are resilient, but I didn’t want them to have to be. I am so afraid of scaring them for life, but as I learn to balance motherhood in this new skin I see that my girls have been so brave and definitely super troopers through all the change that they have been forced to accept.

• My parents are the biggest blessing of all. I could not go through this new life without them, their help, and support. It is not always rainbows and sunshine, but in the end I do see their love for me and their desire to see the girls and I succeed in life.

Sometimes, it is difficult to get wrapped up in everything going wrong, even if what is going right vastly outweighs it. The great thing, is that I have a support system that is there to help pull me out and never get stuck in all the negative. I have to remind myself that it hasn’t been a year yet, a year since our lives were turned upside down. Even once it’s been a year, there is no time table for adjustment and growth. It might not have looked like it, but I tackled this change with the same vigor that I tackle any other unknown and intimidating change.

The girls and I are succeeding and thriving all the same and I can’t wait to see what May brings for us.