It’s Me, Hi.

I’m the problem, it’s me.

Apparently, my last post struck a nerve and I went back and deleted the one snarky line that created the most ungodly drama and argument. I hate when my day ends like that, with anger and essentially beating my head against the wall. Because, no matter what I say it always circles back to my feelings being wrong.

The great thing is that we are no longer married and I don’t have to engage in the fights he picks. This is the second fight in less than a week and I’m tired of it. This blog is supposed to be my safe space, the place to release my thoughts and feelings. This is a place of my own creation, where I hold dominion over the content and what is posted. Never again will I ever delete something because it makes him feel uncomfortable. Deleting anything off my blog means I am holding back and it defeats the purpose of this platform for me. If he does not like the way I see him or view his actions from my eyes, then it is something he will have to live with. Just like I have to live with whatever he says about me to his circle of friends. It isn’t something I concern myself with. I have enough on my plate.

That being said, there are always two sides to every story. If you ever want to know his, just ask him. I encourage it. But just know, that this is MY territory, MY space, MY domain. I will write what makes me angry, sad, and confused, but I will also write what makes me happy and elated. Believe it or not, there has been more of that than anything else lately. I just chose to vent about things stressing me out in my first post after a long while. What a rollercoaster this is….sheesh.

Buckle up and enjoy the ride, thank the gods this is my circus and not yours.